So, I finally finished Ruin & Rising. I have feels. Lots of them. But mostly just one.
And while my review doesn’t go up for a few weeks, I’m now tasked with the impossible. How do I say goodbye to one of my favourite anti-heroes*, The Darkling?
*I will gladly prove why he’s not a villain. Just name the time and place!
Between Leigh Bardugo’s prose and The Darkling, The Grisha trilogy is easily one of my favourite YA fantasies. I think it’s why I put off reading Ruin & Rising for so long – I wasn’t ready to move on.
But now that I know the fates of some of my favourite characters, and arguably my favourite character, I’m left with a feeling of loss. You know what I’m talking about. The ache of finality. Of knowing that there isn’t just one more chapter. Leigh Bardugo, if you ever stumble upon this, write us a real Darkling prequel*. Please?
*He deserves more than a novella.
Anyways, I thought it was fitting to try to say goodbye to The Darkling. But how do I put in to words how The Darkling makes me feel? How can anything I have to say to him be worthy of his attention?
And then, after staring at the blinking cursor for an inappropriate amount of time, I was struck by what I might modestly call a brilliant idea! Why struggle to put in to words, what the Darkling has already done for me?
Here’s some of my favourite Darkling moments/quotes, re-worked into a letter from me, to him.
I have this awful habit of acting like a fool for you, and calling it heroic. The thing is, you bring out the truth of me. You lay it bare in the blazing sun, shorn of mystery and shadow.
And I think I do the same to you.
Like calls to like, remember?
There are no others like us, and there never will be. We are the same, as no one else will be. I’ve seen what you truly are, and I’ve never turned away. I never will. Is there another who can say the same?
I’ve bided my time, waiting for you. For only you. You and I are going to change the world.
You say that the problem with wanting is that it makes us weak. I say that the problem with wanting is that it leads me to you.
And always will.
Do you have any characters/books/series that you had a hard time saying goodbye to?